Where to begin

I have decided to start this blog to bascially catch up with my life. The events of the past 17 years are so overwhelming to me that now, as I am trying to heal, I think that writing it down will help me and maybe even help others. My story is a crazy one. I have heard from so many people on so many occasions that I was nuts for staying as long as I did...but, you can only go when you are ready. No one but you can make that decision.

In a nutshell, I found out that my husband was having "inappropriate realationships" on the internet about 5 years into our relationship. I will go into this more in detail. What amazes me is my inability to stand up for myself. The fear I had of hurting his feelings by confronting him. As if his feelings were more important than mine.

I want this blog to be more than just about him. I want it to be about me. Where I was, where I am and where I am going. I want this written down. I want to see the proof of my srength in front of me.

So, you may get stories from the past, stories from mothering my amazing daughter, stories from working towards healing and new relationships.